I have had a lot of time lately. I hate it, some people enjoy the down time, but man I just feel bored pretty much all the time.
I am about to start a big project. Dawn made me a lead on a show at The Kirk Douglas. I am so excited, and I hope that I do well. Then it's a smaller show that I am prop mastering at Noise Within. That takes care of being busy August and September, and a fraction of October.
What do I do next?
I find recently that I have been missing undergrad a lot. I miss the classes, the coffee in the morning, the dorms, Sarah LaRue, The eating style (which was horrible), the feeling of having a schedule and being busy all the time. I miss being able to read books. I miss the smell and feeling. I miss routine and stress from being overwhelmed. I miss having a purpose and learning. I don't miss anything about grad school other then times spent with the prop tarts late at night. It's nice to learn more about my craft, but I also want to learn more about everything.
It's hard not to be discouraged in these hard times. It's hard not to think am I doing the right thing. But I guess that I have to keep trusting in the universe, breath everyday, and read before bed.
